loro

Cosmic black with red swirls

2011-09-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

"There's more good music out there in the world than bad music. You just have to ignore the crazies (mainstream listeners), turn off the radio, and make a huge vat of indie and stick with it."

I'm all for indie music, and I find little interest in mainstream - pop, r&b, rap etc. except for maybe a few songs here and there. Actually, I'm not even hardcore indie either. I don't choose what I like - I can't control that - I just choose what I like listening to.

We've all got a different palette of music taste (mine's rainbow and yours is moss green or the dirty blue of accidentally bleached dark wash denim) and that's just it. It's not that I go out of my way in searching for all the new wave, indiepop, retro junk bands, and then conveniently add their albums into my ipod so I become cool like that. I don't even like every single track in an album of indie band, unless they're my favourite band and I love them to bits, which is less than likely seeing the word "favourite" also could possibly mean "one and only".

Loads of people I know treat their interest in indie as an extraordinary thing, making it out to be an exclusive right in an inner circle of the music world, where we sit in triangles and wear peace signs and bop our heads along to some completely unknown band and rain blood on Justin Bieber and Rihanna.

If you like indie, well good for you, because I share the same kind of music taste as you and hey - we should hang sometime and share our passion and discuss discography. But let's keep it at that. Don't parade around the whole world and let everyone know that you know bands they don't know. Don't tweet a bunch of songs you are almost absolutely sure that no one else knows; because nobody, I repeat, nobody, ever likes to feel that they're not privy to something. You adore The Perishers? Fantastic - now please keep your adoration between you and your internet server, or you and your ipod. It's not a necessity that you let the world know what you're listening to for you to savour the song or the tingly sparks they give you.

Liking indie does not make you any cooler than the rest. You just have a rainbow music palette, and you don't have to prance about showing off how many other colours you've got on it rather than someone else's dusty pink one just because you can. Because rainbow doesn't mean it's any more exclusive than dusty pink, and it certainly doesn't mean that it makes you any more special. It's just different. Someone's cosmic black with red swirls palette is probably prettier than yours anyway.

So. This song's for you, whoever you are for reading through my entire post and getting where I'm coming from.

Ambling Alp - Yeasayer

Getting sorted

2011-09-02T10:54:00.000-07:00

So after my world was shattered when Kristina Horner took the official Pottermore sorting hat quiz and got Hufflepuff instead of Slytherin.. I went to search for the most reliable (and terribly complicated but possibly more accurate) free sorting quiz I could find through my favorite search tool. Thank you, Google.

The sorting hat says that I belong in Ravenclaw!

Said Ravenclaw, "We'll teach those whose intelligence is surest."

Ravenclaw students tend to be clever, witty, intelligent, and knowledgeable.
Notable residents include Cho Chang and Padma Patil (objects of Harry and Ron's affections), and Luna Lovegood (daughter of The Quibbler magazine's editor).

I'm partial to Ravenclaw, in all honesty. The test was 106 questions long, and was incredibly complicated, with the necessity of meticulous answering as you had to rate every question based on your character with the range of 1-9. I took about half an hour.

The scores upon 100 for all 4 houses for mine ranks like so: Gryffindor - 75, Ravenclaw - 92, Hufflepuff - 62, Slytherin - 78.

So if I'm not Ravenclaw-ish, I'm a Slytherin. Suits me so - I'm definitely not brave enough and that loyal and dependable to be Gryffindor, or plain enough and fair to be Hufflepuff.

Other news about getting sorted... I've came up with a rough plan for the next 3 weeks up to promos. Right about now I just wish I can get the whole thing over and done with. It's a pain in the ass just waiting for it arrive.

Recently I read something that made my heart drop. Don't we all hate that feeling? I know I do. If I knew in advance I'd probably.. still read it.. (due to my incessant stupidity and clawing curiosity) even if I knew I'd regret. Because I do, regret, that is. Would've been better off having never known. Now it's a feeling that will keep niggling at me and I'd take a couple of days to brush it off and think happier thoughts or just forget simply about it. Luckily I only told one; lessen the embarrassing factor when the people I told to about it finds out the truth. I feel like digging deep into the ground and burying myself alive, or jumping into the well where Samara's skeleton floats aimlessly in.

I am never interpreting things beyond my capabilities anymore. I'll just settle for walking around like a blundering fool completely clueless about my environment and aloof of my surroundings. I think I'd be better off that way.

Acne

2011-08-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

Probably the only brand that can get away with selling such a plain, ~~black~~ sorry I mean, phantom shirt at 120 USD.

I love

2011-08-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

..this photo. It just shoots out at you with a "what the hell" feeling because it's so extraordinary like what the hell are these two girls wearing and why.

Closing cycles

2011-08-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

Needless to say, I ended up not posting every day like I said I'd would. Reckons.. every time I write it out for the world to see, I do the exact opposite. It's like I go all out to prove myself wrong. Typical. Here's an excerpt anyway, taken from Paul Coelho's blogsite. If his name doesn't sound familiar, he publishes inspirational books etc. If my scant description is too insufficient for your standards, wiki him.

"One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.
Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are."

Finding your- myself

2011-08-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

This whole week is proclaimed finding-myself-week, where I think about myself and my position in life, and how much my importance seeps into others around me and whether it's of any real value/effect any real change in their lives. (The Birthday Party, Harold Pinter got me thinking) It's also a week where I become more of a realist and less of an idealist and stop seeing the world in black and white, because there's so many different shades of grey out there, and if I don't acknowledge them, I'm well wasted and I'd be the one at the losing end. (But then we really are all losers in us of ourselves so I guess everyone's at the losing end. --> irrevelant)

So I'm going to post maybe everyday of this week and use it as a tool to purge doubts and disbelief and put in a little thought-provoking self-appreciating excerpts/phrases/sentences that resonate with me and my current life and hope that they do with you too.

Today's a beautiful Monday because everything topsy-turvy that has happened to me today all turned out for the better and everything started to look up as the day went by. I know by the end of it I was really whacked out but it's because I'm operating on 2 hours max of sleep and we all know how humans aren't really cut out for being nocturnal.

Watch from 2.09 onwards.

"Dammit Max, be serious for once! What do you actually intend to do with your life?"

"Why is it always about 'what will you do'? What will you do what will he do oh my god what will he do. Do do do do do! Why isn't the issue here 'who I am'?"

"Because Maxwell - what you do, defines who you are."

"No Uncle Teddy, who you are, defines what you do. Right Jude?"

"Surely it's not what you do, but it's the way you do it."

-awkward silence-

I haven't watched Across The Universe in ages and today when I did while having dinner it was sublime and I can't believe I haven't watched it for so long.

Audrey

2011-08-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

Yellow striped vintage sailor dress with black heels. Lovely combination.

Audrey - Say Hi

Audrey I just want to lay my head on your belly

Would you touch my neck would you tell me about your day

'Cause I'm aching inside and I don't really feel much like talking

Would you just play records and maybe listen to my sighs

'Cause if I could just do that

I might be all-

This song gives me shivers down my spine. A shot right through into a bolt of blue. (If you got that song reference Kate loves you!) The best part about this song is the last part, it's so magical and cosmic; it doesn't really end. I swear if I was Audrey and I heard the last bit I might just burst out into tears.

I wish somebody wrote a song for me. It would be the most wondrous thing in the world - there wouldn't be words to describe how'd it feel. To be that special and be somebody's whole world.. I can't even explain it.

I've never experienced feeling deliriously happy before, I'd like to try someday. And no, I don't mean delirium induced by drugs or the happy rock, just.. genuine.

Death, oh baby

2011-08-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

How's everyone doing?
I've been shopping by the cartons ever since US raised their debt ceiling. Taking advantage where advantage is at best. I've also been wasting my weekend away, youtubing, sleeping, listening to music and generally making a fool out of myself. My sister's finally back from Japan by the way! Since this morning so, spent heaps catching up with her :-)

Tribal/Aztec Illuminati Nail Art -> bought a set of 24 falsies with this design. Happiest buy so far this month.

-
Was looking through my old blog thing of mine, and came across this post. I remember this excerpt being taken out of Miki Falls by Mark Crilley. I guess there's some truth to it.

"There are four types of human beings when it comes to love - sustainers, wanderers, selfers, and neverfinds.
Sustainers are the only ones able to keep love alive for a lifetime.
Wanderers fall in love a lot, but can never make it last.
Selfers think they're in love with someone... but really only love themselves.
The hardest ones to explain are the neverfinds. You see them all over; people who, through no fault on their own... never manage to find lasting love.
Wanderers and selfers are lucky, really; they can transform themselves into sustainers, given enough time and effort. But neverfinds have no such hope of salvation. They are cursed to experience love just once... to feel it as fully and as deeply as anyone.. but then, after months or even just weeks..

..to see it snatched away from them for the rest of their lives."

I hope I'm not a neverfind.

-

Death, oh baby
You know that dying is fine but maybe
I wouldn't like death if death were good
Not even if death were good

Hearts get recycled, but never saved.

2011-06-06T11:17:00.000-07:00

Vintage 1980s Lakeside Picnic navy plaid lace-up Keds sneakers.

I want these!

I think I need to readjust some priorities in my life. Reshuffle, reorder, remix. This need stood out like a sorethumb after I realised that the highlight of my night is plunking icecubes into a tall glass of japanese green tea and spending time in front of the mac (WoW sometimes, don't judge) with said green tea. And then watching movies. Till .. half past 2?

Yeah so that's mentioned.

I like going to school and studying. And hitting balls, and playing trockey (trug + hockey). Why does school have to break for June hols? C'mon. We don't need exams. Scrap midyears. Let's just dance in the rain and sing in the moonlight. That's wishful thinking.

Hearts get recycled, but never saved.

Say that you're with me

so you know my face like the back of your hand

Davie

2011-05-26T07:28:00.000-07:00

Guess who.

Dave Franco, James Franco's brother. Family's seriously blessed with good genes.

Dreading gp midyears tomorrow, but once this bit is over, things will start to look up.

You see her as your best friend.. now watch her take your place.

Nothing at all

2011-05-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

Every night, I waste in sighs.

So languidly, fluidly. Flourished.

Our existential matter, and the space apart.

...separating us.

Our hearts - probably (if you let it be) - beating in time.

But stop. This is sad.

I'd rather waste in tears from sadness

than sighs of remorse.

That, or nothing at all.

Hypothesis testing sucks the living shit out of me. How am I supposed to get the hang of this, PLUS revise for the rest of the other chapters by next Tuesday?

Oh and I almost failed my gp essay. HOW COULD I?!

I likely shouldn't be here, I'm such a mess.

My friend tweeted this: "I'm looking at you not looking at me." Story of my life.

Don't look back in anger

2011-05-09T03:02:00.000-07:00

Macbook + debit card within reach + music blasting + a tad bored = money spent

Item #1: Vintage Colourful Plaid Button-Up Blouse (one-of-a-kind)

Item #2: Drawstring Tank Dress (Tri-Black)

Item #3: Cotton Canvas School Bag (Navy/Natural)

Photo credits to: American Apparel

Thirteen

2011-05-08T04:14:00.001-07:00

Look at her. Look at how she tries so hard. Too hard. Now isn't she disgusting? Imagine if she were to magically disappear. Would the world miss her? Would you have missed her? Would you even notice? I doubt you would, I doubt anyone would.

This week sucked ass. The world is so unfair; people are bias, exercise favouritism, and are ignorantly selfish. In one day, I've gone from surprised, to hopeful, to pleading, to heart-dropping, to self-crushing, to world-shattering, to self-denial, to loathing, to wallowing in self-pity, to revelation, to accepting, to disappointed, to surprised. All in a span of a few hours.

Terrible day, Friday. And everyone else around me had equally disastrous days. I'm starting to fall behind in school, and I'm starting to hate being in hockey. I think I'm losing myself within myself. Why can't things just go my way for once? JUST ONCE. I need a solid study buddy too. I want to be a library regular.

So many wants and needs, but the desire and passion in striving to get them are slowly fading.

He was crippled, but only his body was cracked

It's not simple, nor is it an easy matter to explain

"Let's just leave it at that," she says

and closes the Holy Book of Lies, she covers her eyes,

denying to herself what she thought happened.

Tracy (Evan Rachel Wood) - Thirteen

Tether

2011-04-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

"We won't stand for that floating demeanor any longer — look at you all carefree and wishy-washy. It's time to tether yourself to some surreality."

I love this quote.

So, 4 packages came in for me today. I'm pretty delighted that they've all come in one go, but it's got my mum questioning me about me spending too much online. She's seen my a&f package arrive, with not one or two items, but FIVE. And now four packages in a day. But surprisingly enough, she didn't go into lunging mode. Just a quick rant, short and remotely sweet. That's about it then. Pretty much the highlight of the day (My life just isn't that happening).

Ok I think this blog is becoming a place where I either announce to everyone about how much I'm splurging, or spill my girly emotions out for the world to see. This. has. got. to. stop.

Yes I do, so much.

2011-04-10T09:13:00.000-07:00

I want time to stay still forever, now.

It's coming back all over again. Past nicole, who was terrified of change, reluctant to take even baby steps forward and the lack of desire to just move the hell on.

These past few weeks have been a complete whirl for me. Tutorials, lectures, hockey, studying, and slacking on repeat mode, shuffle not allowed. But at least I've always been looking forward to little things that always keeps me going. A glance here, a sneak-a-peek, a moment in-between. A passing feeling. A fleeting encounter. But then now it's going too fast. I want everything to pause. Then play again, but this time, much slower. Like a dance meant to go on forever.

I want something stable in my life. Comforting enough for me to know it'll never go anywhere, that it'll stay.

Also, I've been feeling like I've been invisible lately. I'm standing right in front of you, but you can't see.

Guess I have to learn to look forward. Looking forward to seeing you, then. Looking forward to looking forward.

Promise bows

2011-04-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

I swear the longer I spend time on Etsy, the faster my bank account depletes. I'm such a spendthrift.

Lovely bow earrings with a dangly blue pearl-like thing.

They're so beautiful. I loved them upon first sight, and promptly spent a small fortune on them. With shipping and after conversion, these babies cost me $42 sing. The faster they arrive, the faster I forget about how costly they are. But sadly, shipping internationally never works this way and I have to moan about how expensive they are for about 2 weeks odd before I can stop bitching.

I don't know where all my other goodie packages went. Waiting is torturous, but it'll all be worth it once they arrive.

Hang you up

2011-04-02T03:33:00.000-07:00

I want a nude bicycle.

I cannot hold this anymore.

My hands are tired of only waiting to let go,

and I am waiting,

still.

I hang you up and then I pull you down.

I love us hockey girls. Yesterday's training was full of laughter and shit, like shouting random "NEVER GIVE UP"s in a low manly voice and our very own hoogashaga cheer for hot bodays. We even shouted "never give up" in front of ruggers. They are gonna come after us one day and beat us all up.

I need to find a new source of rush-to-the-heart and butterflies-in-the-stomach feelings. It's time for a change.

xoxo

Sense, anyone?

2011-03-19T10:58:00.001-07:00

Whut? My last post was dated 13th Oct, so I guess this post is almost..golden. Rare. Special. Novel. Ok, that's enough.

So quick check on myself, I'm not exactly the most excellent goal-achiever. I said I'd get a raw score R5 of say, 10, but no, not really. 13 is more like it. Cruddles, I know. But whatever, still would've chose the same JC. I like pj, it's fun with a warm environment. Full of good people. Most importantly, I like it, period.

I think I'm going to dump my livejournal, it's too vulgar. Practically a sore to my eyes. Sometimes I think vulgar isn't me. I wasn't born into this Earth spilling out profanities and whatnot, unlike some (we all know a few, don't we?). And no, I'm not a natural gossiper, I don't belong in the Gossip Girl schema, huddled with a bunch of party-goers, susurrations (often spiteful and mean) echoing from our vibrant little fanfare. It isn't me, swear. In my honest opinion, I think I'm sort of weak. Not weak in being physically unable to lift a tonne, but just, quiet. Unwilling to stand up. Shunning the crazies and watching from afar. Though I have to admit, I do love being one of them crazies sometimes. Am I contradicting myself? I think I am. It happens a lot in my life. I confuse others so often, I think I'm confusing myself.

There's so many things I want to say, that I want to share, that I want to just reach my hand out, touch someone and tell them straight. But 9 out of 10 I simply suppress myself. I consider their reactions predetermined, and I pause and retract my thoughts. Not good. I need to be more proactive. I can't keep being a runway for every Tom, Dick, and Harry. This is me, speaking up. This post is evidence of it.

These past few days I've gotten so worried that I haven't been making the most out of what I've got. I think I'm wasting my time terribly. I want so much out of me, it's almost becoming out of my own reach. I aim too high. People reach for the stars, hoping they could land somewhere amongst the clouds. Me? I take my telescope and aim all the way to fucking Jupiter. I don't land up anywhere in the end, I just get suspended in mid-space, leaving myself hanging. Unacceptable.

I think people are starting to get sick of me. And if I don't watch out, I think I'm going to get sick of myself as well.

School? What school?

2010-10-13T09:39:00.000-07:00

Last day of school's tomorrow.

Honestly when I think about it, I can't really be sure per se how I'm supposed to feel. Cheery? Sad? Disappointed? I know I'll definitely miss secondary school once everything's over, be it tomorrow or even after o's and next year, so shouldn't I do something special in commemoration of it all? I know I'll miss tons of people, but apart from that, I'll also miss the surroundings, the environment, the memories in different parts of the school, and of course the tiny little things here and there that make up part of everyday secondary school life. I just sat for about 5 minutes earlier, presumably stoning but really not, thinking how a normal school day would go down like and if I'd miss anything from it. Trundling through the side gate at 5 minutes past 7 in the morning, sitting down, and looking out for certain people, meeting my friends as they roll in one after the other at the parade square, and then leaving to respective venues, my eyes darting about to do the usual spotting rounds. Ah, the usual spotting rounds, got to love 'em. I think this will the last year ever in my life that'll allow me to be so aloof during school hours. I can walk around and be with people but think of other stuff all the time. T'is an ability to detach one self is very important, methinks. Except if only I could detach myself from worldly desires, then I think it'll be more productive and y'know, practical, but I'm not a very practical person. I love coming up with the weirdest things. Man you know it's better to be completely out of my skull than boring I'll give you that. I don't mind it a bit. I'm veering off topic now. Back to school matters and my girly emotions.

I'll really miss the part where all of us are trapped inside a school and the classrooms and we go absolutely crazy when they let us off during feeding time aka recess and lunch. I'll miss how we run out of the school's back gate, eat a meal in 7 minutes, rush back and make it in time for subject contact time. I'll miss tie day cause I look ohsosmart in my tie and I'll miss shitty performances put up in our school hall for us to completely derail and go hysterical with. I'll miss sleeping in class and getting caught, and I'll miss looking forward to days in school where I either have to bring almost nothing to school, or dress-up days, or days where I can rule the world with my bright red NUM bag or blue watch or green/orange/grey/blue/pink/red socks or coloured slide pins or quirky hairstyles or my new attitude. I'll miss you and you and you and you too. I'll miss the whole class, and I'll miss some of my teachers. I'll miss netball and my fellow netballers, and I'll miss the birthday cake smashes and dark stairwells and ghost hauntings and night ptms and sucking up to teachers and throwing bottle caps off 6th floor and class parties and going generally crazy in and out of class.

I don't want to graduate anymore and I don't want o's to be over.

Yet I can't wait for everything to end, so I can see all these people again, and love my life because it goes on and doesn't stick in sec 4 forever like I'd wish it to be.

Nicoleissoawesomelike that she's gonna do it.

2010-09-13T01:58:00.000-07:00

This is it man.

The next weeks are going to be the very last before o's, and seeing how dismal and sad my prelims results are, I'm going to try. Yes, try. Try to study constantly and really brush up on my exam skills, gaps in content knowledge and concentrate to produce the resultssss.

I don't want to be the girl next year, thinking "What if." That's really the pits.

A L1R5 = 10 that allows me to go to my desired jc next year will, forevermore, make me infinitely cooler than the rest;)

Forever doesn't last.

2010-09-12T02:38:00.000-07:00

Who the hell did I think I was.. to mean something to you?

I know it's finally over. I know someday it'll happen, but now that it's actually happening, I just think.

"Man, I thought we'd always be like before, forever."

Well past nicole, you were so batshit crazy. Forever doesn't last.

Say you don't want it.

2010-08-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

Don't you ask me if it's love, my dear

Love don't really mean a thing 'round here.

Forever.

2010-07-26T02:56:00.000-07:00

"So what would you do?"

"Mm, same as you. I'd get hurt, mad, confused. Ask people for advice - maybe the wrong people - and then I'd wait."

"For what?"

"For him to grow up. Come around. Everything."

"And how long does that take?"

"Don't go by me. I'd probably be stupid enough to wait forever."

Jen & Joey, Dawson's Creek.

Pretty?

2010-07-24T12:23:00.000-07:00

When I saw this model, I'm thinking "Damn she's pretty."

And it's kind of a big thing? Cause I usually don't say many girls are pretty straight just like that. And plus, every time I look at this picture I keep saying she's pretty.

I LOVE HER FEATURES CAN I STEAL THEM RIGHT OFF HER FACE? GRRR.

But it's not like appearances all matter. Maybe she's impossibly hard to reason with and a downright bitch, or a total slob and collects one-dollar bills as a hobby. You never know.

Just cause you're beautiful on the outside doesn't mean you're beautiful on the inside as well.

And ignore the scarves she's wearing that cost half a thousand lol.

Choc cake & iced tea.

2010-06-25T09:48:00.000-07:00

Studied @ coffeebean again today.

It's like I haven't learnt my lesson at all; studying in a place that is absolutely freezing is heaps crazy. Haven't I learnt my lesson yet? Every time I leave that place I walk all funny cause I can't bend my knees and I'm sniffing and sneezing and wondering why my nose won't stop. (Duh obvious it won't because I'm shivering)

And my hoodie's no good. Coffeebean is way too cold, it's like they hiked up the temperature to deter long hours spent there, which would mean teenagers wouldn't study there. One blunder they've run into, though: It's so cold we're stuck solid to the chair, our hand gripped to the pen, hovering over our work. Exaggeration this is NOT. Go there and knock yourself out or something, then come back and tell me I'm right:)

Ah, kiong has confirmed my sec sch life is already screwed. Compared to hers, mine doesn't even register a number on the Fun Scale Out Of Ten! because the fun scale doesn't include negative numbers.

I bought a weekly planner yesterday. Another thing added to my pile of not-going-to-be-used-and-soon-will-spend-half-it's-life-in-a-trash-bin again. But the buying's goooood. (Y)

Retail therapy does work. You know what doesn't work? Nicole. She doesn't work.

That's why there's still that long list of homework undone. I will wear my lucky horseshoe on Mon.

Gee.

2010-06-24T09:41:00.000-07:00

Ah, so that's what you do to people you "hate", huh.

You got me to believe that, nice one mate.

*finger pistol*

SHUT IT.

2010-06-10T04:29:00.000-07:00

Laugh it off, bitch.

You could be Debrakar.

2010-05-20T07:51:00.000-07:00

D: Not true. These are images grounded in the reality of imagination.

J: Did you just pull that one out of your butt or what?

- Dawson and Joey, Dawson's Creek

Claire & Drew.

2010-05-12T07:50:00.001-07:00

I'd give it up for just one more day with you.

Give it up, give it all away.

Cherry stems & wonders of blutack.

2010-04-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

Decided to blog about something.

These few weeks have been a complete rush. Life's been so busy. It's either doing homework till past midnight, going out to concerts/dinner/basketball, or staying back at school to dawdle. But all very fun, I might add. Dinner @ Swensens with Crystal and Charmaine, and chocolate fondue for dessert. Note to take: All of us aren't good kissers. Cherry-stem-knot-tiers, we aren't. 'Cept Charmaine, but prolly cause her cherry stem is longer than ours.

Today, I learnt how to stretch blutack. Not kidding.

Yummy π.

2010-03-09T04:42:00.000-08:00

FREE APPLE π FOR EVERYONE! XD

..except for Germaine.

POOOOOSH.

2010-03-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

Hello. Quick rant.

It's not been v long or anything, and I have a life too. So just cause it was one time you're so.. sensitive? You're v v v v v v sensitive gosh. :( For a guy! And. Stop repeating that same thing over and over again, you're like breaking down your heart into pieces and flinging the shards in my face. -.- It's so fun and free and floaty and rush-to-the-heart adrenaline pumps for the first few times, and after that it's like, I'm being weighed down?! Not supposed to feel like that otherwise something is srsly wrong. Shit like this should be banned! BANNED, I TELL YOU. I want to lodge a complain to the authority of The Shit Association.

EUZFUSEUANSKFNEKCWFNDJHZ.

I love leaving hints, if you can find it, I'll give you a free apple π.

Reality..sucks.

2010-02-20T22:29:00.000-08:00

Another most awesome dream last night.

Playing pranks and mingling with seniors.

You know how it feels having a certain somebody looking out for you? Like teaching you the ropes and how to do things easier, and what to do whenever. And what's best is that you've always wanted to be tight with her but there wasn't ever a chance that came along to take. All that heart-pounding adrenaline and scares for laughs in deserted fields and unknown weirdos stalking around, over the bridge and up again, and screened-in porches with no light.

I guess the more and more you really look at your dream and break it down, you'll find where your true happiness lies. What your subconscious secretly, oh so secretly, desires. That right now we're just showing a physical front, putting on a show and playing puppeteers for kings.

One of the details of my dreams tells me I should love school. Yes, really love school. Love doing everything we're not supposed to in school, at least. Running around in the empty corridors, sticking heads in places we shouldn't go near, discovering neat places, smashing cake at people's faces in the dark stairwell, splashing water everywhere, racing around the netball court with a trail of tissue following behind, sticking feet into the eco pond, creating plays for the school that will never be shown, writing scripts for people to follow when they never do, lying in the school, dark out, watching the night sky with music tinkling from your handphone, snug beside you, sorting out scandals with outrageous plans, walking around in school, with particularly nowhere to go, but with the thrill you might get caught doing nothing.

Smiling at everyone and counting how many smile back.

I just wanted to post this cause while I was doing standard deviation, I was smiling to myself about how much I wanted my dreams to be real. Last night's was no exception. Even more so if I wanted them to be real, they have to be kept alive in my memory. Fearing I'd forget, I switched my mac back on and typed out this post.

I want the world to see what I see.

Poem.

2010-02-17T05:21:00.000-08:00

I still remember

stark white walls

bleached floors

you,

3 feet away

walking towards

The free world right and left

the air changes

your eyes

like distraction

My breath stopping

heart pounding

you were gone

maybe, I think

I don't exist

at least, not in your world

this, they say, those dreams of mine

-poof!-

Inspiration by Looks, by Madeleine George, and pov towards a real person.

Haven't thought of a title yet! Comment if you will.

PJ.

2010-02-10T04:53:00.000-08:00

12th October 2009

Then, I had been ranting continuously on both my lj and blog about Percy Jackson: The Lightning Thief coming out:) Hardly believe that it's coming out tmr!

Been waiting so long, can't wait to watch it

hellz

yeah.

Tag thingum.

2010-02-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

What did you do last night?
Fall asleep on my bed when I wasn't supposed to yet.

What was the first thing you thought about in the morning?
Crap in three hats, I'm late for the Adventure Race... Crystal is going to kill me.

What are you wearing right now?
Night pjs?

Are you in love with someone?
No.

When was the last time you got drunk?
Never.

Partying or watching a movie?
Watching a movie, defo.

What pisses you off the most?
When someone gets so insensitive and can't think straight.

Last thing you questioned yourself on?
Ahem. *clears throat*

Bars or clubs?
Clubs.. or bars.

What is the main ringtone on your phone?
It's always on silent so I don't really get to hear my ringtone anyway.

Where do you want to be at a year from now?
In the JC of choice.

How many kids would you like to have?
I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Anything bothering you right now?
Yes. Somebody is. In a good way. How can bothering be in a good way anyway? ..jeez.

What do you do to relieve stress?
Tear paper and bury my nose in my pillow till I can't breathe. And throw things around in the house.

Do you like pickles?
Yeah.

Are you proud of yourself?
In some aspects, most of time not really.

Do you wish upon stars?
Sure do, when I see a particularly bright one.

Who was the last friend to walk out of your life?
Don't remember.

Do you miss them?
A bit, maybe.

Would you want them back in your life?
Maybe.

What is your relationship status?
Single.

Are you happy with that?
So far I've been living.

Do your parents have myspace accounts?
Nope.

Are the majority of your friends male or female?
Female.

Would you go back and change any part of your life?
Yes. Way back.

Do you believe love lasts forever?
I'm a crude and cynical and mean and sardonic. So no.

If you saw someone broken down on the side of the road, would you stop to help?
What sort of English is that? As a certified stickler of grammar, I refuse to answer this poorly constructed question.

What do you think of when you hear the word Cheese?
"Do you like.. cheese?" ("Yes I do, my favourite's Gouda!")

What color are your bedsheets?
Bloody red.

Whats your favorite word?
Bamboozled, currently.

What would you say if someone apologised to you?
Nah.

When they break something that belongs to you?
I liked that!

When they break your heart?
*keeps quiet*

Do you laugh enough?
Don't think so.

Do you believe that dreams come true?
In my past experience, no.

Whats one thing you would change about yourself?
It's not for public consumption.

Have you ever read the book "the notebook"?
No, not intending to either.

Have you held someone's hand in the past week?
No.

Have you sent more than 100 smses in the past week?
No idea.

Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
Nope.

Have you kissed anyone more than 5 yrs your age?
As a stickler for spelling, I insist you change 'yrs' to 'years' otherwise I refuse to answer.

When was the last time you got a phone call?
This morning, from Crystal and Terence because I was freaking late meeting them.

Where do you work?
I don't. I'm free-loading off the 'rents.

Have you ever thought you could do a better job at being president?
I'd certainly come up with better health care policies. (Kidding.)

If you could only drink one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Don't know.

Whats one food you could eat everyday for the rest of your life?
Don't know.

What was your costume for halloween last year?
I was still having exams then, I think. So it's school uniform. (Eek, real horror there.)

How many cousins do you have?

Mom's side: 6? And some more I probably can't remember right now. Father's side: 3 I know, rest not sure.

What are you going to do after this?
Watch Supernatural's new episode and 'Alex Day criticizing Twilight' Videos in bed, then wonder if he knows.

Do I have to tag? If I do, I'm tagging:

1 Jaslyn

2 Ivan

3 Maya

4 Crystal

5 Mayching The Terrible

2010-01-24T08:21:00.001-08:00

Under God and above us all.

11 Things.

2010-01-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

11 Things I want to achieve/be this 2010:

1 Like studying.

2 Be more or entirely focused with one particular thing at a time.

3 At the end of one day, go "Wow, I'm actually satisfied and proud of myself today."

4 Able to play at least 5 of my favourite songs on guitar.

5 Get an acoustic guitar.

6 Buy that gray bunny sitting in the shop and treat it with tlc, unlike the rest of my other pets.

7 Go for this june's cosplay + enjoy it properly + _____. (xD)

8 Feel like and is ahead in school work.

9 Do something special for someone.

10 Finally have a heart-to-heart talk with M.

11 Stay up an entire night talking about everything under the sun with anybody.

I'll let you know how the list crosses out. :)

2010.

2010-01-02T02:38:00.000-08:00

First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already.

Doing ispls continuously has melted my brain. I think I'm gonna leave it hanging cause if not I might craze out.

Will everyone else out there not finish SS too? Otherwise I'll just feel like some lazy goon.

I'm not ready for 2010.

P4A DANCE PARTAY.

2009-12-19T23:23:00.000-08:00

This song makes people wanna dance. xD

Awesome dance tho, have to say.

Anw, more than that, support Project For Awesome! Helping the less fortunate children.

Join the 3 million World Vision donors, supporters, and volunteers who work every day to decrease World Suck @ www.worldvison.org

PERCY J TRAILER!

2009-12-10T07:13:00.000-08:00

THE NEW PERCY J TRAILER! Set to come out on President's Day, but 11th Feb for Singapore.

Also coming out on 12th Feb:
Percy Jackson Graphic Novel.

Coming out on 10th Feb:
The Last Airbender. Not too psyched about seeing the Fire Nation being portrayed as Indian (no racism intended here), but I'll prolly be watching for plot. After all, I used to write fanfic about it. Argh, which comes back to my unfinished Zutty fanfic! :(

Makoto/Chiaki/Kousuke.

2009-12-10T01:28:00.000-08:00

Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo (The Girl Who Leapt Through Time)

If you haven't seen this anime movie, I suggest you should. It's simply the best.

Touching, refreshing, amazingly cute, and funny. Great music too. :D

Cas & Dean.

2009-12-08T06:58:00.000-08:00

Castiel and Dean! And no, I'm NOT a slash fan.

I think this drawing is awesome. :)

I realized, it's like in this blog, you can learn a little bit of me everytime. xD

J & J.

2009-12-07T07:16:00.000-08:00

Lolololol they are so cute. xD

xD

2009-11-25T08:38:00.000-08:00

I'm so gonna watch this movie next year, Feb 12th. xD

Jaded.

2009-11-12T06:25:00.000-08:00

19th - 23rd Nov out of Singapore:)

Nyonya.

2009-11-05T05:06:00.000-08:00

Peranakan Trip pictures:)
Latest to earliest.

Photo credits: Sara and Sherlyn.
Bye!

Jump.

2009-11-01T08:58:00.000-08:00

2 more weeks here:(

cannot find my geog tb so v frustrating urgh urgh urgh.
think I have to travel further to a bigger bookshop with larger stock.
tired. :/

LJ: zappowkerplunk.lj

Snazzy.

2009-10-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

Can't wait for 29th October:)

LJ: zappowkerplunk.lj

Wish.

2009-10-24T11:50:00.000-07:00

Ok bye:)

Lace.

2009-10-19T03:02:00.000-07:00

LJ: zappowkerplunk.lj

I wonder if my life revolves around anything else other than my Samurai Deeper Kyo, Supernatural, Jake Abel, and my continuous tiresome efforts in locating the movie Tru Loved. It's so difficult to find, probably 'cause of the theming but still.

I'll still continue to wonder.

You know what insanity is?
It's doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results.

Can't, or won't?

2009-09-09T23:07:00.000-07:00

If blogger's inactive: zappowkerplunk.lj

Set up twitter omguh lol.
I know, right:)

Keeper.

2009-09-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

I've finally updated my fanfiction! :)

I'm still thinking if I should go for tomorrow's barbecue. I don't know who's actually going, but I guess it should be fun. Well, at least a little fun at the most.

J has been really helpful and consoling yesternight. I owe you one.

Blog more when there's a mood to!

I see it, but I still don't believe it. Maybe it's cause I don't want to.

:(

Broken.

2009-09-08T02:35:00.000-07:00

8th September. The most depressing day ever. Made me think, made my stomach turn to knots so tight a girl guide would be ashamed, made my head spin, got me left being a little more confused than usual. If you didn't get that really long sentence, I'll shorten it. I hate today.

I can't say why and I can't openly type it out. I just don't understand myself sometimes - if i'd got it figured out and even guessed it, why am I so surprised and hurt? But I don't get to be hurt, because I'm in no position to be. I have no right to care and no right to be angry. So it doesn't give me much right to feel hurt, but I do. People hurt and get hurt. You can't change that one doesn't experience the other. Makes me feel annoyed and irritated. Well, both that, and surprised and hurt all sandwiched between subway cookies, epic fail, and sadness.

I just dropped a major hint there. If you are one of those people who know know and not just know, you'd roughly know what happened. Where's J when you need her. Cause I need her. When I found out about it I didn't think of telling M or L or S but just J. I just had to go home and log into msn and find J and spill. And online sob. And this makes it even worse because before, well, it was the pang of missing, right J? Add this? You get a nasty, biting, and foul concoction. But she isn't online, and I'm slowly dying here. I can't call because.

I guess you can say it's lucky to find out during the holidays instead of somewhere near the exams. Probably.

But it'll be luckier if I hadn't found out at all. Like what they say, shit happens.

Amorous.

2009-09-06T11:07:00.000-07:00

Wow.. blogger is back to normal? That's a new low.

It's 2.07 a.m now, and i've been dawdling on the computer the whole evening. I should really start doing some revision man, before my brain rots. It's honestly rotting, I can almost smell the putrid stench of dead gray matter.

There's a trigo test tomorrow, in the afternoon. I can't say I'm too psyched about it, and I can't say I'm not. It's a mutual feeling, me and math, math and I, both of us. I just hope I don't flunk it again, otherwise there's simply no hope for doing further trigo and bearably passing. Since the mention, I might like to add that there's a test for both simple and further trigo when the new term starts. Somebody shoot me! This is such a depressing term. Term 3 and 4 are never enjoyable. Next year's term 3 and 4 will be worse, just like every other teacher already established that annoying fact.

Last post was me whinging about my priorities, right? How I so cleverly created a list that will go down the next week as one of the best ever? Problem is, I haven't even started on one. Revision? Nope. Homework? Nada. Zutara fanfic? Nein. Netball? Zilch. Slack? ... Okay, maybe one. I need to find a source of motivation! Need to tear myself away from Youtubing and Simming! Maybe tomorrow's trigo test will have me get back in working shape again. Maybe it is a good thing, after all. That I'd start to unpack my school bag and let the books air. At least not study, but air. Airing is important, don't doubt it's ability to fool a mother that said airer is studying.

I like reading people's blogs when something bad happens to them. Wait, let me rephrase that. When something not-so-very-pleasant happens to them. Don't take it that I'm mean. I'm not. What I really meant is, to feel just a little bit better than the usual forlorn state, I read about other things that don't go so well for people. You know that pang you get when you think you have acheived total loser position and then find out that there's someone else out there who has it worse off than you do? The feeling isn't awesome, it isn't great, it's ordinary. Maybe extraordinary. But it's present and it makes you feel all tingly with glee inside. I guess every now and then that's what everyone needs, you know? Chase the sadness away and gain unusual happiness through terms of oddity. Especially odd since it's through other people's woes. Just a note: I am not a sadist nor mesochist, and I am definitely not mean. (Sadists aren't people who are always sad, and mesochists are not extremely wealthy people in terms of Maple, and 'mean' is the opposite of kind, not in the context of 'mean lean killing machine'.)

Tomorrow will be the day I start my revision. I will try by all means to. Nothing will get in my way.

But hey, shit happens, right?

Loro.

2009-09-04T12:25:00.000-07:00

Status of sticky posts: Noted and appreciated.

Recently I've been going through my priorities again.
Remember the previous post where I once so foolishly claimed that the top priority was to complete the Zutara fanfic?
Scrap that.
I think at this stage, revision and studying SPA would be more important, seeing how the finals are coming in so soon.
They're practically rushing us into the exams already.
After this long-awaited holiday for a week or so, we only have 2 weeks left to study, prepare, and revise before finals start.
First off: Physics SPA.
I am not psyched for it. I am scared for it.
I don't want to screw up the most easiest skill to score at and jeopardize my chances at getting a decent grade for physics O's.
I mean, what's the odds that skill 3 will be any better?
Or skill 2?
Skill 1, defo a no-no for failing/doing badly.
Just by typing this I can get a whole lot more nervous.

Can you believe some people are so smart?
Josephine is taking Bio.
It's not about the Biology, it's the level she's taking it at.
AP Biology! AP! Gosh.
Totally incessed, no? She's way too smart for her own good.
She's going to start contradicting herself like geniuses do.
Like what she says, you have to learn how to love studying.
I will, promise.
I'll get my stack of books, pack a picnic basket, go to East Coast and do a little bonding with my Chemistry, then a little forces of attraction with Physics, analyse the real breakwaters there with my Geography textbook... okay I'll shut it.
But seriously though, in order to do well I have to love studying just a little bit more than Josephine loves her Biology 4 a.m classes. (It's a lot of love already, trust me, that girl is nuts.)

Mum's going to Genting tomorrow, so she's leaving at around half past 5.
Mayching's coming down to 'take care' of me.
I don't need to be taken care of, just so you know.
I can live fine on my own.
PS. This is not considered teenage rebellion.

I have to admit I'm too lazy to go for training twice next week.
Plus all the revision and homework that needs to be done?
I'll need 30 hours in a day.
Extra 6 hours: (3 hours for msn-ing and 2 hours of sleeping and the last 1 hour for work.)
I'm just kidding, of course I'll do 6 hours of work!
Right.

Since I've established my current goings-on, I need to do a little re-evaluating here.
Priority (most important) -
1. Revision
2. Homework
3. Zutara fanfic
4. Netball
5. Slacking
Priority (least important)
Slacking last?! I know, right! It's so sad. :(

Is there such thing as teenage blues?
There is.
It's happening right now.

Smile.

2009-09-01T03:25:00.000-07:00

Changed back to classic template, cause the new templae causes too much trouble.
The blog's supposed to work for me, not me for it. >:(

So, some new relinks have been lost in the process, and for a long time ever, I actually went scouring around for people's new links and linked them.
If you never asked me to link you but I have your new link, don't gape all slack-jawed.
I am not a stalker and I don't think I'll be taking up such a hectic profession.
I've also added back in my cbox and scraped off the comments because.
Leave a note or whatever, but I'm not going to try to keep my cbox alive.
It'll just be for you to say anything and I'll either get back to you or tell you I've noted it down.
Relinks, links, simple messages, trash talk, smileys, gushy notes, criticism, and 'Your Mama so ..' jokes are all warmly accepted.

I'll be online for long hours now that the sept hols are coming.
Basically I'm just Simming for long periods without drink or food.
Addiction? Yes.
Some words of wisdom:
Don't start Simming just before O's, unless you want to sleep at 3 a.m on a school night.

It's a cold day today.
Been cold since morning, and my feet are frozen.
Well it's not like my house is carpeted.
(Clicks on Building Tool and selects a creamy white coloured Carpet and begins dragging material over floor.)
Scrape 'Addiction'. It's obsession.
I guess the profession of being a stalker seems pretty viable just about now.

Mayching came back last weekend, and she packed up more stuff to take away to her dorm.
Curses, I want to grow up faster.
(Selects 'Game Options' and drags the indicator on the slide bar under Aging to decrease the number of days ...)
Alright I'll shut up.
If anyone realised yet, this is a new feature to Sims 3.
Anywho back to initial point. Jeez.
I want to grow up faster and finish O's already, and be in JC.
Assuming I get into a JC.
And then, I'll be in a dorm in a uni.
Again, assuming I get into a uni.
Wouldn't life be so wonderful? At this point, at this age, at this generation, there's nothing life can offer.
Except free-loading from our parents.
Big pro there. But many other small cons. It's okay, I think I'll survive.

Stopping here.
Looking forward to sept hols.
Looking forward to looking forward.

Couture.

2009-08-24T07:40:00.000-07:00

Announcement: I have bought my new laptop! *applauds*

Finally.
No more ganking off my sister's, and no more looking at her use a new laptop.
Haven't been online for a long time, so many apologies to those who wonder if i had ceased to exist.
Also, a gazillion sorrys for my fanfiction being so dead.
I know I said I'd update, and I will, once I get my ass down to work.
Leaving off hanging on some unknown chapter has gotten me confused.
No idea where to begin, so I need a refresher of some sort.
Need to start rewatching all over again, so I can almost by then, promise that I can update this coming Sept Hols.
Exams aside! Revision to the left! Homework to the far right! Priority goes to Zutara fanfic!
My gosh, my priorities are messed up big time.

Physics and History CT back today.
I'm just glad I passed physics, cause I thought it was going to be drenched in red.
Just for the record, it still is.
It looks as though my teacher's heart has haemorrhaged all over my test.
History shocked me a bit.
I thought I couldn't do reasonably well, along with my SS and joining the boat of Fail.
(All aboard the Fail Boat, first stop, FAIL.)
Well my SS test will leave me being a complete and utter epic fail though.
Here's me wishing.

Tonight I've finished my A-Math Homework.
*slack-jaw*
I know! It's so weird. I held it up like it's a holy grail and going 'Ahhhhhh~' in thy holy-est voice ever.
My hands have frozen by the end of it.
Aircon is way too cold.

Sluggish note: Phy SPA Mock this coming thursday.
Did I mention how much I hate thursdays? I have to rush off somewhere after that as well.
Got to study, yes?
YES.
I hope that burns an imprint in my brain forever.

I miss M and M and M and M and M.
I miss J too.
I miss another J.
I miss F.
I miss Y.
I miss the whole damn alphabet.

Unbecoming.

2009-08-15T22:55:00.000-07:00

Long time, no update.
Flag day yesterday was tiring.
Watched Silent Hill last night till morning, pretty damn awesomely gruesome.
Will post a proper, more elaborated post another day.

Commontests start as of tomorrow.
Bite me.

Lunacy.

2009-08-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

Detail list down of school today and how it was like.

National Day Celebration:

1. The Extremely Boring, Long Speech Delivered By Principal
- Extremely boring and long so I almost fell asleep. 'Lo and behold, I (luckily) realized this wasn't what we're supposed to do.
- I counted how many specks of dust were on the floor and see how far I could irritate Hsih Yee. Which wasn't very difficult.

2. Don't Forget The Lyrics
- Got picked to do a duet with number 34. Number 34 is a girl, thank god. Xiao Lei and I pondered over the second line of the starting chorus. Got a little help, but by no means did we cheat. We're honest people.

3. Class Party
- Formed this long line of tables, huddling in the centre and taking up much space. Brandished food for the taking and fizzy drinks. Champagne cocktail bottles to be popped.

4. The Death and Waste of Cocktail Bottle (Blue) and Cocktail Bottle (Pink)
- Blue Cocktail bottle was popped in front of 3e2. Took Ivan a bit to tug the cork out, but after a few more cheering-ons and hollers the cork flew a mile across, stopping short of a wall at the far end.
- Pink Cocktail bottle wasn't as lucky. Shook far too hard the pressure inside forced the cork out without any manpower help. Spilled over and cork flew the goodness-knows-where. Tables splattered with fizzy cocktail drink.

5. The 3e2 Choir
- Strangely enough, e2 decided to spread the holy love of Singapore. They came trundling through our front doors and began to form a group in front with Ms Chua leading them on. They sang 'Home'. We joined in.

6. The 3e2 and 3e1 Choir
- Skipped our way to 3e4's class and the 3e2 choir naturally took their place in front of the class. Curious but willing 3e1 onlookers joined at the back, creating a dual surround sound system blasting 'Home'. 3e4, not impressed.

7. Soccer
- Walked down and paraded to the hard court in twos. Gathered around near the field and cheered for our class in soccer. Halfway through, the 3e2 Choir came charging down across the court to sing their 'Home' again. Hilarity. They ran off in the direction of the General Office.

8. Break
- Fatigue set in, we loped into class, for refreshments. The Number Game was played, and after that we set out to the netball court.

9. Netball Court Madness
- Iceman was played, the entire court filled with people from e1, e2, and e3. Boys running past is like F1 race cars battling for first prize. Not to be missed.
- Cling Cling (?) next, started off with pairs. Less crazy, but still rejuvenating for health, honest.

10. The Mr Cha Moment
- Said teacher strode in, in the middle of our fanatic shouts and running. We had to clean up and get out of school. For the first time ever, they're actually kicking us out. Epic.

11. The Unbelievable Cleanliness In 3e1
- Helpful classmates rearranged the tables back to original positions, cleaned up the classroom, and wiped the table tops. We are gratuitous for your effort. I think it's even cleaner before the party started.

12. The Goodbye
- Met Jessie and Sara after changing and said our goodbyes to the group of guys hanging out near the entrance to the netball court.

That's the end of what happened in school.
Anyway I went to Buddy's with J and S, met Jiaxun, and then ate my fill.
Nothing else interesting today, except a couple of days ago? I talked to a cat.
Yes, a friggin' cat.
I speak cat.
Omg.
Told said cat my woes and troubles and it listened to me, licking its fur.
I said in return for listening to me, I'd fan it with my book.
So I did.
It was a fair trade.

Talking to cats?
I need a psychiatrist.

Caution.

2009-07-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

Using my sister's laptop to update!
When she gets into Uni, she'd be able to get a new laptop while I probably won't be able to.
Once again, depravity.
Kill me now.

She'd gotten back from UK yesterday, and I have some brilliant piccahs to share the next time I post.
Because for now, it's sort of getting late, and this woman here needs to pack her bag.
And get some sleep.
For the eye bags underneath her eyes is getting more prevalent and prominent.
And also!
Defo time for me to get back my me-time!
Last wednesday's one was an epic fail.
A complete, total flopping sad, wet fish-ed failure.
Not only will I promise on this post that I'll post the UK piccahs, I'll also promise to remedy the lack of pictures in this post with my experience for supper last friday!
Though pictures of the supper can be found on Ms Chua's facebook account.
Go checkidout dudeeee.

I'm also starting to finish my play-by-ear piano piece of Hey There Delilah today.
The more times I listen to it as I replay the unfinished bits, the more the title Go To Hell Delilah starts sounding like a better replacement to me.
*headdesk*

98.7 please shut up shut up shut up.

rhyme.

2009-07-19T03:18:00.000-07:00

mood: psh.

status: has a headache that kills.

my laptop has given out on me.

it claims it can't detect the keyboard, and refuses to cooperate and turn on.

which in turn, forbids usage and access to anything on it.

which means i can't get to my precious files and documents! :(

argh, how horrible.

on the other hand, with this case going on, i've new reason to beg my mum for a new laptop.

i've asked and pleaded last night, and she said she'd think about it.

until then, i'll be using my sister's laptop and praying for her approval.

i mean after all, there's that Suntec PC going on in expo!

i just saw the tv ad the same day my computer wired out.

how... efficient of it.

found two new cool people to subscribe to on youtube today. :)

they're really awesome and great to watch/waste my time.

shall continue watching more tonight, defo.

phrase of the day: coollike

means: falling in love with a french.

usage: That guy is coollike-ing.

i know, i so dig the british accent.

charlie is awesome! :)

(so if you're a coffee person you can go die in a hole.)

talked to jcja last night, about somebody.

then she changed her pm about that somebody.

well she has a point i mean.

it's seriously hard for me to be satisfied with anything.

he needs to be perfect.

alright alright you're going to kill me now when you read this.

talking about you killing, wonder where you were last night.

you just let up on me, going off like that!

missed your fanatic, crazed assumptions about lucas.

yeah, he's a dork for doing (that).

on a soggy note, i can't upload any deco pictures from the Racial Harmony decorations at Keming.

terribly sorry, but i've in fact might like to reinforce the same thing with you as i did earlier.

that since i'm using my sister's laptop, my handphone program isn't installed and it refuses to detect my phone when it's plugged in.

such the depravity i receive when my computer's wiped out.

isn't it so awful?

on a less soggy note, harry potter and the goblet of fire is on tonight on channel 5!

hip hip hooray.

i bet many will be watching, due to Robbert Pattinson being inside.

hey, i used to like him too, but that was because of the harry potter movie, not twilight.

but that time he was so unknown, i couldn't find him starring in any other shows.

yes you're quite right, i had this big crush on him.

major. crush.

dang, there goes one secret that'll be used against me later on in life.

oh well, too bad he dies in this show.

i do sympathise from the bottom of my heart.

except i really don't care now that he's gone popular with the other teens.

just wonderful. what am i gonna do now, with an hour left to boot and no new episodes from charlie and kristina?

"When he doesn't talk to you, you say he's mean. When he's nice to you, you say he's a flirt. It's so hard to be a _ _ _ _ _ _ , it's so hard to be _ _ _ _ ."

i do agree i'm quite mean eh.

nothing doing about it though. >:)

bother.

2009-07-17T07:04:00.000-07:00

mood: terrific. :)

status: sniffing cause i've a runny nose.

HAHA YAY.

a lot of tests today tho. :(

but short schooling day so i counted the minutes down.

actually no, i was trying to finish my sbq, i didn't have time for that.

tomorrow gonna work my ass off at Keming.

i don't have a choice!

have to help with some deco around the school for Racial Harmony Day.

too bad i wanted to sleep.

i need sleep.

i need many other things too but that can't be helped, right?

this woman here badly needs to do more trigo.

she needs to prove that she can prove. :/

fences.

2009-07-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

mood: depressed.

status: sick.

don't tempt me.

it's been 1 month and 5 days do you know how long is that it's really very long i thought that i didn't care but i actually do don't you care at all i'm just gonna say that

i miss you

but that would be such a cliche and it'll sound just like everyone else but it's the truth

cause i really do

hope one day somehow some way you'll know.

Now, can't you see something's missing.

calibre.

2009-07-12T03:25:00.000-07:00

Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is.

Someday, if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay.

mood: mmhm.

status: AHHHH I LOVE HOTARU! :D (above, on the right.)

Watch out!

Pre-randomness coming!

Don't know where I'll end up. :)

The following are old pictures from the class chalet.

satay bbq!

mabel!

delcynia!

sihan!

sherlyn!

sihan with wavy-hand blur effect!

the guys throwing stones out into the water.

trying to make them skip on the surface.

the coast!

in a line, cause they wanted to race somewhere.

hahaha yeah man, i took part!

samantha and i.

some reduced-to-a-fly pond. could have sworn it was a whole lot bigger before.

canal in broad daylight!

at night when jared and i were cycling, we crossed the bridge, and the view here is pitch black!

he dared me to look ahead and see ~something~.

swamp/mangrove.

everyone sleeping at around six in the morning.

i was still wide awake.

night view of harbour!

blurry face!

ghost!

swimming at night, anyone?

expensive chocs!

*mouth waters*

that's a deliciously chocolate-coated apple w rainbow sprinkles!

went to east coast coupla weeks back.

on the way.

mango dessert!

it was scrummy, i'll grant you that.

sparkling water, which i drank and didn't finish.

there's only so much fizzy water i can handle in a day.

water-skiing!

night view of lake/pond.

at school, coupla days back.

qihao and hongjie playing basketball with the netball.

at least i think it's them.

mum's friend bought these fake frangipangi hairbands from thailand!

(ignore messy table)

9 degree celsius cocktail is awesome!

add water tho, a bit too sweet.

school while driving by.

liquid alcohol thermometer, dyed purple.

i think it's dead cool.

nice picture ehy!

took the right reflexes.

furry cat tail.

it looks sorta bored.

burning copper (II) sulphate crystals give you a brilliant green flame!

don't say i don't learn nothing in chem spa!

beautiful blue solution.

that's charmaine behind the set-up!

i'm the next samara!

cute cobra listening to cobra starship music.

actually it's just an ipod but since as of now i say it's CS music, it is.

my sister drew the cobra.

decorated my foolscap front page!

friday @ changi airport.

weird swirling flower thing.

once you go near, it starts moving towards your direction.

it has some sort of sense thingy.

saw my sister off to UK!

i'm gonna miss her. :(

she'd be there for 2 weeks.

decorated my room wall on saturday.

finally!

spent hours and more on it.

first try at drawing Chinmei's chibi cartoon with his favourite phrase: Love & Peace (heart)

(below)

checked the real picture, and it was an EPIC FAIL.

hahaha.

second time at it!

it was a success yeah!

compare it with the real one!

Chinmei is one cool guy! :)

this is how he looks like.

Love & Peace (heart)

hahaha.

btw, he's from Samurai Deeper Kyo, which is this manga i'm currently reading/loving.

i don't like the anime as much, cause the storyline is way awkward in it!

manga still the bomb!

this has been a long post.

signing off! :)

where cool comes to die.

righteously.

2009-07-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

In a room dark except for the lurid illumination cast by a computer’s screen, a huddled figure sat, rocking back and forth, mumbling to itself in a pathetic sing-song whisper, “...significance of the bi-variant regression correlation coefficient is a function of its t-score...multi-variant regression analysis beta-coefficient of the first independent variable is a function of the x-one y correlation minus the x-two y correlation times the x-one x-two correlation divided by one minus the square of correlation x-one x-two...probability of data set occurring to chance divided by...”

Warm golden hopeful light cut the darkness as the door of the room was hesitantly pushed open just enough to permit a second figure to enter. Very carefully, it made its way over to the miserable gargoyle of a person squatted in front of the laptop, stepping cautiously over empty discarded soda cans and candy wrappers.

“Onee-sama...”

The huddled figure continued its keening wretched mantra, heedless of the gentle coaxing tone of the visitor. “...if t-score is less than the confidence interval it is likely that the data configuration is due to chance...null hypothesis cannot be rejected...”

“Onee-sama.” The second figure shook its head, regretting that it had come down to this. There was only one thing to do. “Gomen nasai, onee-sama.” An iron skillet was raised high in the air. “Your statistics final is not the end of the universe. Time to snap out of it.”

“...predicted value of y equals the intercept constant when...snap...”

The iron skillet wielder paused. Had she heard correctly? “Onee-sama, what did you say?”

“...end of the universe...”

“Onee-sama?”

“Hahahahaha...” The low, coughing chuckle was fit to made blood run cold – its mocking merriment echoed with the desperate doleful tenor of a mind teetering on the brink of insanity.

‘I’m too late!’ The iron skillet swung down with the implacable velocity of divine judgment – and hit air.

“Uh-oh...”

“I’ll be taking that, thank you,” a rasp sounded in her ear as the hefty metal implement was twisted from her grip with strength borne from madness, “It’s FUN time! Hahahahahahaha...AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!” Just as the maniacal cackle reached its thundering crescendo, a loud explosion and a thick cloud of noxious, sugar-scented smoke filled the room. The laughing wreck of ravaged sanity vanished.

Coughing as she waved aside the choking vapor, Kanashimi assessed the situation: “This… could be a problem.”

vision.

2009-07-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

I said, are you gonna be my girl?

mood: happy!

status: sleepy.

i'm not going to say this more than once.

I DO NOT HAVE FACEBOOK.

at least, a legible, intact one.

realised i had an account like just now, and i was wth?

well i've officially deactivated it.

because i want to.

(click to expand>

hah, and it asked me why i wanted to deactivate it.

i chose the option and it asked me to elaborate.

read the 'Please explain further:' bit. *evil laughter*

i'm gonna get blacklisted! :O

and talking to sihan yesterday.

this is sweet.

plus, to prove she OWES me, cause i helped scan and sent the geog ws to her!

wasted my time, pfft! :)

whatever you say, dude.

vanity.

2009-07-08T08:38:00.000-07:00

Every time I think of you

I get a shot right through

into a bolt of blue.

mood: meh.

status: missing you.

chem spa today!

crystallisation is fun.

charmaine and i did the experiment twice, to kill time and for fun.

blogger can finally upload pictures!

i guess things are starting to look up.

i must say, a good company brings fun.

hanging out with sherlyn, sihan, joyce and jodenia sure makes me miss 2e3 now. :(

okay i'll stop putting sad faces, it makes my post sound extra whiny.

i mean the last one was already sucha let down, eh.

whine whine whine.

that's what she said.

Comment Replies:

3rd July.

SHERLYN-L said...

Yodeeee Nicole! :D

July 5, 2009 11:41 PM

Hi. :)

Delcynia'♥ said...

Why comment. Lol. ;P I duwan to comment on my cloney ! I just want to say hi ! :D

July 6, 2009 1:48 AM

LOL. weird clone!

Delcynia'♥ said...

ILYMC!!!!!!!! (ILoveYouMyClone!)

July 6, 2009 2:13 AM

ilovemyclonetoo! :)

7th July.

destinated-love said...

Heys haha! Cheer Up Girl!!

July 8, 2009 3:36 AM

hahaha, thank you! :)

yumi_michiyo said...

*snork*

July 8, 2009 3:42 AM

don't snork at me, young lady!

Jodenia said...

Hah yeah, its one long long journey. :( cheer up anyw! Cause we all suffer together:D

July 8, 2009 4:16 AM

hah yeah manzx, so tiring. :( suffering is pain. we're all about pain, eh. :D

for the first time ever, no math homework. *big whoop*

physics spa prac, wish us luck!

ah, what a stupid radio.

lights out.

2009-07-07T01:35:00.000-07:00

everything has changed.

the faces stay the same.

so let go of the rest.

mood: :(

status: :((

it's so gloomy outside.

when it rains, it really pours, eh.

i'm tired of homework.

ttly fed up with it. -.-

tests to study for, homework to complete, revise revise revise.

are you in, or out?'

rumour goes that laughing takes away everything at that moment.

sadness, regret, blah blah.

i guess it also takes away your sanity, since you can't seem to think straight anymore.

procrastination goes out the window.

jammed at the study table for hours straight.

meh.

life's a journey?

well it's one helluva long journey.

it's you and me against the world.

mannequin.

2009-07-03T07:00:00.001-07:00

Cause people change.
can't you see my eyes.
are they not the same after the lies?

mood: -

status: alive.

i said.

go away, conscience.

i can't have you, right now.

ditch.

2009-06-28T01:03:00.000-07:00

Get ready to get wasted.

mood: grrrrrr.

status: rushing.

today's the last day of the june holidays.

i know, it's appalling.

how can the holidays be so short? it's not fair.

a month isn't barely enough to suffice the amount of entertainment and free time we youngsters need in this generation.

we need a lot of rest to recuperate the stress we had over the first term of school this year.

this very, unfortunate year, with the H1N1 and sort.

imagine how the singaporeans suffer, eager to rush out and scoop dirt cheap items from the Great Singapore Sale, but yet revolted by the news of the influenza bug spreading around.

even River Island is having a sale, up to 50% off tops.

and i've just seen an ad. in Her World magazine (don't ask me why or when i've read it), and there's this snazzy clothing boutique down in town, called the Uniqlo.

apparently, its clothes line are Japanese-styled by Japanese designers that takes ages to pronounce their names.

for basic tops, jeans, and hooded sweaters, they have 20 hues of colours, and more for jeans.

i'm truly amazed.

i think i might want to pop down there and grab a couple of necessities.

*eyes dart side to side*

try and stop me, hunneh.

NAYWAY, apart from that, i've (finally) cut my fringe to a decent length, (now people will stop mistaking me as an emo kid and wth, how can they do that i'm not even wearing all black!) and have arranged an appointment with the dentist.

yes, i'm gonna do braces.

i'm all about pain and suffering.

i've also created a to-do list (which will prolly never get done) and have ticked off at least two on it.

it has to be completed by the end of the day, maybe OT into midnight if i have to. *glances at still big pile of ispls and promptly faints*

looks like schoolwork has just made my day again. (and for the rest of the year oh no!)

long time since i've ranted, since i don't really rant on my blog.

(usually to unsuspecting victims i condescendingly and painfully pick out from the msn list).

and now i've still an english compo to do, but i can almost assure you i won't do it.

not till monday, at least, cause i really hope ms lim won't ask us to pass it up just yet.

but then again, my luck always turns sour at the last moment.

i'm the girl who chose to wear coloured socks on the last day of school in 2008, and got caught when everyone else who wore them on normal school days didn't.

(curse my luck gods!)

you know what they say, luck is a skill.

i just happen to have really sucked at it. (goes without saying)

honestly, i can't believe they cut out the homeroom system for us, just cause of the flu bug.

and they took out homeroom fore-eh-vah for the sec 4s.

wth?

unfair unfair unfair.

life is unfair.

i have to print out the timetable now, and then do a bit of my geog, and prolly get ready my stuff for school.

better get organized when i know i'm never gonna be for the rest of the year.

half the year just flew by really fast.

fawn.

2009-06-25T01:22:00.000-07:00

everything is in place.

let's rock.

mood: i'm like w-o-w.

status: grinning at the computer as if it's laced with crack.

i'm back from 3D2N chalet! :)

didcha miss me!

it was fun, but also kinda boring.

esp the guys have sicko minds. -.-

i didn't stay over on the 2nd night though, i went back after the BBQ.

sihan's parents gave me and sherlyn a lift back to BB.

thanks, sihan! :)

idf like posting much cause i'm very tired and my head hurts!

i slept a lot last night cause on the first night @ costa sands, i didn't sleep AT ALL.

was biking around pasir ris hahaha.

Mabel: "they're gonna serve up Johnny Depp fried" Hahaha I laughed my head off at this, but dont worry I put my head back. LOL. Haha!

ncmy: hahaha the typo is so funny! ^^

Penelope!: kim bum is so cute ! ( :

ncmy: YESYESYESYESYESYESOKAYI'LLSHUTUPNOWHAHAHA. ^^

amelia: heyhey. link me up!

ncmy: haha okay!

Jiamin: BOOYA. good girls go bad music video up in 4 dayssssssssssssss. GABE IS HOT, hotter than the guy you posted:p

ncmy: hahaha can't wait for the video! :) and GABE is JUST AS HAWT AS KHJ. :D

hope they extend the hols cause i haven't finished all my ispls!

bye! ^^

gist.

2009-06-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

my moves are white.

white hot, that is.

YOON JI HOO! :)

and now, ispls!

bye!

meringue.

2009-06-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

i'm not street,

but i do what i gotta do.

mood: delighted ttm atm.

status: finished bof-ing.

khj looks cuter with a shorter crop on his head. :)

the rest of my pictures below are fanon-based.

(fanon, meaning that a shipping i'm supporting isn't real in the show.)

such as ji hoo together with jan di.

stupid jun pyo. :(

ruined everything!

hahahahahhahaha. -.-

this gotta be one of the best pictures, cause putting his beanie on her head is so darn sweet.

and then lastly, one picture to appease the jun pyo/jan di fans.

that's all of jp/jd pictures i'm gonna post here.

(psst, cause it's a sucky relationship.) ^^

the next lot are chibi-styled drawings of them and ending theme pictures.

edited ones are just for fun.

no harm.

okay this one is to spite stlr. :p

but i don't mean to offend the other die-hard jp/jd fans, honest.

'other', being the key word. :)

ta, i'm done!

gonna sleep now.

jh is really cute/sweet/romantic/caring/honest/sensitive/talented!

everything jp is not! haha.

just for fun though. click here ---> (shout-thensprint.bs) ^^

srsly tho, why must the heroine always ignore the guy who does so much for her. -.-

ttfn! :)

race ya.

2009-06-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

KIM BUM IS AWESOME. :)

and the more i watch kim hyun joong, the more i find him sweet and romantic. -.-

kim bum is still hotter though.

retarded moment's over, back to bof!

yeah, the latest fanatical obsession tearing me away from the com and my ispls. -.-

but oh wth, it's def worth it! :)

Edited.

i take my post back.

hyun joong is hotter! :D

srsly, Ji Hoo's so sweet, romantic, and caring!

so much better than Jun Pyo. -.-

Jan Di, you suck for choosing JP! :(

and off. :)

inside out.

2009-06-17T03:13:00.000-07:00

So what if you catch me,
where would we land?

mood: cranky.

status: being cranky.

awesomic that i've managed to finish uploading all the pictures last night.

so here's yours truly blogging about my penang trip.

Day 1

two miserable pictures cause i didn't fling my phone around much.

that's my cousin using her computer to play Restaurant City on Fb. -.-

can't remember what else happened that day.

shopping i guess.

Day 2

more shopping.

nicole's a brand.

Day 3

spastic picture to start off.

covering my fringe cause it was v ugly.

square-shaped rice.

spelling mistake here lol.

Depp Fried Otak Beancurd.

zomg, they're gonna serve up Johnny Depp fried.

Day 4

monitor gone haywire.

btw, this is right way up.

everything on the screen turned whacked.

trying to figure out how to solve the problem.

at F21. (curses the price tags that hang from the shades.)

felt hats are gorgeous.

Day 5

mum's shades she wanted to buy.

choc pretzel remains from aunt anne's.

coloured candy socks.

horizon.

if you feel slightly queasy at the sight of blood, skip the next few piccahs.

srsly.

mayching went to donate blood.

the huge needle.
her bag o' red, fresh blood.
happy that she can lie down and i can't. -.-

in starbucks.

i saw this and i cursed my geog ispl.

which is still not completed oh wth.

pictures taken from the car while driving by.

some special snow ice cream.

it's really flaky and melts in the mouth real fast.

great to chillax and eat.

mine's flavoured vanilla and choc syrup.

finished!

and i think all the days are mixed upzx but wth i can't remember. -.-

last week's trip to je library with samanthatlr.

honest to god, it was quite productive.

finished quite a lot of ispls.

albeit the number of pictures.

random spastic photo.

blurrier the better.

bottom of math ispl, had a saying of some sort.

jsykt, this is for fun.

arrowed down to write 'Gabe Saporta's brother'.

Nicole hearts Gabe. (and his purple hoodie too.)

whew.

lazy to type, bet you can see that.

ouch, my head, my hand, and my ankle hurts.

tell me, how to go for training tmr.

auf wiedershen. :)

checkmate.

2009-06-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

when you'd hide
your songs would die,
so I'd hide yours with mine.

mood: feeling half-dead.
status: is stuffing her mouth now.

i'm (obviously) still not back yet, but i just want to update again.
one of the many reasons being i'm bored, but let's skip that and put a show of an exciting, exhilirating, awesome, gorgeously scripted, wondrous reason.
i feel like blogging!
now isn't that enough? it says all.
i realised not many of you might know what my blog title means, so i'll put it up.

so·lil·o·quy (sə-lĭl'ə-kwē)
n. pl. so·lil·o·quies

1. a) A dramatic or literary form of discourse in which a character talks to himself or herself or reveals his or her thoughts without addressing a listener.

b)A specific speech or piece of writing in this form of discourse.

2. The act of speaking to oneself.

I'm targetting the meaning of 'soliloquy' as 1. a), jsykt.
if you didn't know anyway, just to help enrich your vocabulary, esp those lit students out there, since you're gonna learn this form of literature later on at JC level, or maybe even next year, if they bring it down.
tsk, the audacity of the SG (it's not singapore, did i say singapore? No. But srsly, what else could it be..?) government, increasing the level of education constantly.
srsly, the next generation, primary 1 students will be learning A Math. -.-

oh yes, my apologies for not using any piccahs that has to actually involve my life in it.
cause like said before, i'm overseas and can't upload any proper stuff to use.
so i have to use these substitutes to generally make my blog look a little less wordy.
seems like i've got a lot to say in this post, eh.
i'm busy typing everything down while chuffing chiffon cake down my throat.
yummy chiffon cake, at that. :)

alright, time to go now.
if anything else to add, i'll add in back into this post, under 'Edited' aight!

ps. just when you start to hate the guy, he goes and makes your heart melt. classic. -.-

auf wiedershen. :)

awww dip.

2009-06-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

you stand out, it's so loud..
and so what if it is.

mood: grumpy.

status: laughing at the current heineken ad.

first of all, the picture:

(to those who understand)

yeah. laugh it off, why don't you?

hahahahaha. -.-

k, i'm in m'sia right now.
well actually, left on wednesday so i've been here for about, a couple of days.

you know how when it's a holiday you go into this weirdish slumber mode?

i don't even know or care about what day and the date!

when there's school i'm pretty alert and everything, but my body has shut off now.

chronologically disfigured, i would say.

sorry i can't post any pictures or anything.

it's not my computer, it's my cousin's.

anyway, i'll be flying back soon; will reach sg on tuesday morning.

just in case you want to send me a welcome home text! :)

alright, doubt so, but hey, was worth a try.

hey, you.

so miss me. :)

ps. turtles suck. all of them do.

pps. o.o i can't believe J actually keeps up with the posting of N and otherwise.

ich liebe dich. :)

desirish.

2009-06-09T11:20:00.000-07:00

and you hear them say,

that miles away,

we've lost another one that we've sent with a gun.

we're gonna miss him.

mood: ispls-on-the-brain!

status: currently motivated.

JCJA says:

not all the times

*time

but sometimes, i do ask him to be strong

coz he can such a pessimist at times

pretty annoying

Nic. says:

ah, these peple.

people*

usually with the chance i'd tell em to eff off.

cause i hate pessimistsa

pessimists*

they rile me

JCJA says:

thank god you're not that close to lucas

Nic. says:

they rile me so bad cause i'mma pessimist too. and i tell em to eff off cause i want it to continue being a rare species. if anyone here should get to be the queen of negativity, it should be me, and me only. YOURS TRULY. innuendo.

JCJA says:

wow

well said

put it in your blog

Nic. says:

which?

from the starting of 'ah.. these people?'

LOL

i'm doing it with the right motivation.

JCJA says:

yea do it

Nic. says:

i want more optimistic people around.

if there only should be one pessimist, it shall only be me.

i'm doing a world of good here

JCJA says:

ahha yea

put it up in your blog

Nic. says:

hahaha

yeah

exactly

you need to (slowly) break away from it

hence the change of nick and pm

you may not know how or why

but it helps

JCJA says:

yea actually it does

but time also plays a role

Nic. says:

yeah. but basing on factors..

well

time is the last resort

because you need it for something else, rather than growing apart

you need time for healing all wounds.

was asked to put this up, so. :)

you see this excerpt from the convo.

proper post next time, maybe during my overseas trip?

and photos, but of course.

ta. :)

poetic monologue.

2009-06-07T02:42:00.000-07:00

i'll pretend that everyday is that day.

hear them say, we can't keep reliving the past.

mood: nostalgic.

status: smushed.

changed blogskin cause i felt the need to.

the old one was too tacky, no offense.

tuition today, and all i could say is that i'm very confuzzled with my math.

which is vng atm.

i'm addicted to my current blogsong now.

which is v lovely ttm. :)

if you stick around to listen to the chorus, i think you'll find it highly soothing.

apart from my tango with math and falling back into time, nothing much has happened today.

this is the last day of the first week of the june holidays, and i have to admit.

i haven't done a single ispl package. none are completed. i am just so sad.

i can't do any after realizing my textbooks are still in school wth.

got to get them back on tues.

and then have to rush them since i'll be mia from wednesday to sunday as of next week.

going to m'sia for awhile, and i can't do anything about it.

leaves me v little time for ispls in the remaining 2 weeks, so.

got to do amap and asap.

i got a date with SS tonight, baby.

don't blow things out of proportion.

let the chips, fall as they may.

auf wiedershen. :)

ho-hum.

2009-06-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

double-eww, tee, haych.

Caption: Boycott shampoo, demand real poo.

mood: indifferent.

status: is feeling full.

this is gonna be a short post!

will post stuff about netball camp another day.

cause i don't have the 'feel' to type much.

Lazy. Lethargic. Lax.

since everything starts with 'L', i should include.. Lucas. HAHAHA.

jcja, hope 'cha read this! the following few words.

hiya, lukey wukey! :D

HAHAHAHAH!

don't kill me now. :)

ps. i will start it first! i will i will! :)

pps. who is you-know-who? i still don't know till now. been re-reading and re-reading. argh.

ppps. who is the you that you are looking for? hahahaha.

pppps. i need a Leon friend!

ich liebe dich. :)

Edited

ARGH.

MUST.

HAVE.

MOTIVATION.

MUST.

FINISH.

ISPL.

SOON.

MUST.

CHIONG.

tuesday.

2009-06-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

i'm actually banned from the computer, but that's okay, cause of my sneakiness (such word?), i'm able to use my spidey-sense and beat the odds.

Caption: "I'm promoting the sleep-deprived in school. Helps with publicity."

mood: cheery. (shock, horror.)

status: smiling her pants off. and now, she lack pants.

"You see, there are two kinds of people in the world. Those who look forward to what they're going to do, and what they're going to be in the future...and those who look to the past for reasons why they can't be anything more than what they are. They blame everyone else for their mistakes, and so they can never move forward.

So if somebody like that comes asking for a favour...tell 'em to drop dead. Now put down that glass slipper, go out there and get me some pictures of the royal ball."

The Best of Spiderman, Volume Five.

i know what you're thinking.

comics at your age?

whoa whoa whoa, rewind and remix.

it's good to do something else different, especially when you've been banned by your mum to ever use the computer.

i feel my spidey sense tickling again. :D

and you know what, save the soft soap, i've been caught out.

yeah, my mum just opened the door a couple of minutes ago, looking at both me and my sister tapping away frantically at our laptops.

luckily she's in a good mood, so i guess my skin is saved for tonight.

Edited.

and, i'm talking to JCJA now.

hahaha. click on enlargement.

fierce like woah. ^^

HAHAHAHA.

okay.

and with that mentioned, it's time for me to slip back into the shady present.

oblivious to kind, it's actually known as real life.

and hell, i've still got.. *dum di dummmm* THE TIME MATRIX, to complete.

yes, fear the time matrix, for it twidaddles your brain into mush in mere seconds.

i plan to fill my head with mush now.

ps. cause if you won't, i will.

pps. glad to be back, people, glad to be back.

ppps. absolutely ridiculous.

tata. :)

holidays.

2009-05-30T01:44:00.000-07:00

i think ISPLs are a joke.

really. i look at them, and i can't help cracking up.

mood: feeling sorry.

status: energy-sucked.

A couple of days ago, i was trying to shoot a netball into the pole.

backwards.

so this one you can't really see the net, but still, you'll see how the ball drops after i throw it,

to gage whether it got in.

the voices in the background belong to Rachel and Yanlan, and they're kinda noisy. ^^

so neway, watch the lame/bo liao nicole tyvm. :D

PTM yesterday!

i stuck around to help, while waiting for my mum to come down.

stayed the whole day at school!

played netball after lessons, and while NPCC evicted our court, we were fooling around.

i drew that with my waterbottle. :)

and then sheryl wanted in on my photo, so she stood in the big loop of my 'y'.

hahaha, i hope she sees this spastic photo! :D

and these are crazy netballers.

and this is crazy agnes.

using the umbrella as her blanket.

xinen's cute and short waterbottle.

after that, we went to eat lunch at the canteen, and yuhui and jerome joined me and sara.

and then we talked abit and fooled around before going up.

hung around the classes before PTM officially started.

don't have pictures at this part, it's all in sara's phone.

SOP classroom!

yuhui in front of CR17.

our nicely decorated 3e1 whiteboard.

3e1'o9 ftw. :)

and no thanks for the spamming, 3e2. >:(

the blue blue sky, taken from the netball court.

the white thing at the top of the picture is actually a crescent moon.

sucks if you can't see it props. :)

jared and james strutting down the walkway.

jared's youngest brother, sara, kelway, and jessie on the 6th floor.

everyone else isn't looking, but kelway posed.

now here, they're all looking but kelway.

sigh.

school at night!

went to the 6th floor with sihan, cause she was still waiting for dylan to finish his turn.

the netball pole at night.

btw, it was really cooling up here.

caught jonathan and chhun hay, candid.

and jonathan tried to delete the photo off, and we were wrestling for my phone.

but aha, it's still with me. :)

got a lift from sihan's parents, and reached home in a jiffy.

walked up the stairs on the way, and saw a cat sitting there.

and we were both staring at each other, like some staredown competition or something.

hahaha, i took a picture of her. at least, i think it's a 'her'.

she wasn't scared of me. usually a lot of people aren't, haha. :)

reached home after, like finally.

yesterday, was so tiring manzx.

went online and wished sec 4s good luck for their chinese o's. :)

yeah, i'm so kind-hearted.

crapped a lot with jessie. or rather, i'm the one crapping. ^^

long post to make up for the long wait, eh.

tag replies now.

sara! =): hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

ncmy: helloooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Penelope!: heyyyy! cya tmr.

ncmy: yup! cya. :)

☆ Y I L I N G: Taggies for youuuu

ncmy: HAHA. tagged back!

delcynia :D: hi nicole cloney hahaha, saw the zigzaw :X hahaha ~ i want to go to da vinci the exhibition manz haaha ~

ncmy: hahaha, gogogo! won't regret manzx! :)

Lxl, mavis: You are even more bo liao to take bo liao pictures -.

ncmy: ^^

Penelope!: to Lxl, mavis, whoever you are, you're RIGHT ! lol, nicole is bo liao . ;]

ncmy: ._.

Josephine: HI NCMY!!! I love the pictures you're in with May Ching, and for the love of God, STOP GROWING!! TOO TALL!

ncmy: HI JCJA! :D not tall enough hah. :)

okay dokey, time to watch my movie, yeehaw. :D

Edited.

ps. ~~i'm sorry i forgot to wish you luck for your chinese o's. ): i don't know why, hah.~~

pps. ~~you! come online! i miss talking to you, haha. ^^~~

ppps. turtle-netball is fun.

pppps. i crossed those two out cause it's been done. :)

auf wiedershen! :)

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2009-05-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

my mum asks me if i have anything else to do besides using the computer.

frankly, i don't even have an answer to that.

wtf.

sunday.

2009-05-24T06:36:00.000-07:00

There's a place off Ocean Avenue,

where i used to sit and talk with you.

mood: slightly worried.

status: twiddling her thumbs.

aight, first of all. gotta thank these people who gave me a belated birthday present.

lots of love, i really appreciated it. :D

sorry for posting this so late.

okay. been busy out these couple of days.

and tonight, it seems that i can't sleep tight.

i've got some game planning to do for the netball camp, and some corrections.

aight, saturday, i went to east coast park for dinner.

we ate at this fancy alfresco restaurant, and a couple were having their wedding there.

it's so cool, having a beachside wedding.

but, in singapore?

why not maybe, at Miami beach, or even California.

now that would be way awesome.

for sunday, which is today, i went to the Science Centre for the Da Vinci exhibition.

it was fantastic yeah.

he really is a genius, that's all i can say.

you should go! you, yes you, whoever you are, reading this. go! you won't regret it.

they reveal 25 new-found secrets of the Mona Lisa painting.

neway, my sister bought 'The Last Supper' poster at the gift shop outside.

i think it's good too, i would've gotten that if i had money. ^^

went to the iMax theatre after, to watch a show on prehistoric sea creatures.

it was okay, got a bit of a neck pain after that, ouch.

Sakura right after, and for dessert, had yam ice cream with choc sprinkles.

that's right, people, i got myself some indulgence in yam.

jealously may begin now. :D

haha, rest of the pictures.

that's all. scrummy time i had.

random picture of Atiqah doing her work.

really random manzx. hahaa.

didcha know i have a dog?

well, i do. it's name is Spot.

This, is Spot.

"SPOT!"

"Did you eat everything in the fridge?!"

it's scared of me already. ^^

hah. and when i used 'spot remover' on her, she disappeared. LOL.

which is why her name is now .. uh. she doesn't have a name, really.

hahaha.

okay, i think i should start doing some work.

here i go, ripping my butt off the chair situated in front of the computer.

ps. don't be harsh. be nice. be cute. :D cause if anyone around here should get to be harsh, it should be me! ME. mwahahahaha! okay mad, crazy, hysterical moment's gone.

pps. oh, bother.

ppps. one more week to a month of freedom. i will survive SPA test. at least will try to.

pppps. yeah, wtg man. atw! :)

auf wiedershen!

thursday.

2009-05-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna be very frank.

i think i'm unfit.

Caption: "I would make a 'heart' but it'll just make my picture like everyone else's. Be extraordinary. Be special."

mood: Discouraged and Depressed, both with a capital D.

status: ~~waiting~~ waited, and not anymore she isn't.

you can't completely blame me.

this is what slacking for a couple of weeks can do to you.

exams not only kill your brain cells, but deems us unfit.

i had netball training today, and i think it killed me, resurrected me again, and died again.

neway, enough of my prattling.

i think i should just bung myself in bed and stay in there, for a long time.

for a really, reaaaaaaally, long time.

anyone agree? yes of course you do.

awesome. :) now, the ugly/attractive word of the day.

the ugly word of the day: raunchy

the attractive word of the day: macadamia

oh snozzles, i laughed at that for a good, fifteen minutes no less.

communitychannel is indeed captivating.

def fun for killing time when you're bored.

and i'm always bored. well, at least i think i am. when i'm not doing anything else.

actually, i have things to do.

like, A math corrections.

and photocopying the netball training schedule.

and find my physics paper 1.

and sort out a physics file.

and find all the stuff i've lost and promised to find, when i have the time.

and my Redox worksheet.

and check through all my papers and recount the marks, so i won't be marked short.

but.

four words.

i'm. too. fricking. lazy.

four full stops makes it quadruply true.

at least i think that's how it goes.

i can't rip my butt off the chair that's in front of the computer.

too much mental/psychological/emotional strength which i lack severely.

i think i've subconsciously relaxed myself into 'slumber' mode, which is solely reserved for long holidays and sleep time.

my biological clock is whack.

so is my brain.

it's fidaddled to nothing. burnt out. maxed its limits. expired, long ago.

i think i need a new brain. this one's used.

ps. i'm tired of waiting. all the time.

pps. i think maybe it's time i should just give up. something i've been wanting to do but without reason. now, you give me the reason to. i ought to say something, but i can't choose between these two phrases. 'thank you', or 'screw this'.

ppps. "Why are all these ugly people here? They're just befouling our streets with their ugliness. But i guess some of them are okay on the inside. Deep down, and i mean deep deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down, some are nice."

pppps. "When i mean 'we', i mean 'me', because i'm just that cool."

ppppps. you're inferior on the exterior.

when life gives you lemons, make grapejuice and watch the world wonder how you did it.

auf wiedershen & gutten nacht. :)

tuesday.

2009-05-19T05:49:00.000-07:00

i said i had to use the computer for work, but she didn't believe me!

skeptical mum wouldn't buy my bullshit for nuts. ):

Caption: (picture says all)

mood: indifferent.

status: still gawping about today's WOWIFYING news. three of them, indeedy.

today was crappy and tiring.

seriously.

MT shitzx and then a movie; Coach Carter.

at least that was quite nice, but they could at least give us chairs!

my legs were beginning to cramp with numb.

cold, so utterly cold. ugh.

after that, they made us arrange the tables up in fours.

after successfully dotting the hall with clusters of dark blue, they let us go for recess.

and guess what?

recess starts at 10.30 am. they freed us at 10.50 am. ._.

who could not be pissed?

expect us to fill our hunger up so fast in such a short amount of time.

three letters. wth.

then after we rushed back up, (i almost choked on the bun.) we chose a place to sit.

did financial literacy, and wow, i feel so much more literal with finance! :D ._.

right after, we pushed the tables back for Sex Ed, (cues drama music) everyone's favourite.

i think i'll leave out the bits for this. ^^

oh and, we made our ICs already. coolio.

netball training after!

&, i don't think i'm gonna go for sarawak anymore.

so impractical. tsk.

training actually cancelled, but we hung around for a netball game, as such guai people we are.

sweaty out and out.

made my way back quickly, as to avoid the evening crowd on the bus.

slacked, played darkeden.

wth no one want to buy my elemental stones. ):<

it's only 1 mil! i'm sure they're rich! agh. haha.

uploaded photos and yay!

xinle slapped my knee two, painful times. D:

and they sang me a birthday song. ^^

hahaha, thanks juniors/seniors yo.

Mavis want to act cute but yet, cover her face. bo liao to the max. hah.

Juniors!

Jeslyn & uhm..shatzx! forgot my junior's name! :O uh, junior and junior. :D

juniors who won't look into my camera! sjuabkdacwendk!

sheryl checking out her stinky shirt. ^^

bright, bright, sun. i practically melted. can go there and find nicole goo.

random.

sara seems bored.

rachel seems more bored.

candid. checkidout. ^^

agnes's and sheryl's legs.

the netball doesn't seem to go over to their side.

candid.

cam-shy.

Red-tinted pic. guess you know who.

well aight, that's it!

thanks again for the extra birthday wishes today!

and the birthday song, Spectacular with a capital S. :D

and btw, i was sleeping on the court. ^^

at the far corner with shade, ahaha.

people came to disturb me manzx.

soon formed a crowd, and i couldn't sleep anymore!

so i raised my arms straight out like a zombie, and slowly sat up, going "I LIVEEEE!~"

HAH. from Mulan eh. :) by mushu, voiced by Eddie Murphy. He's so funny. xD

& i guess i'm quite satisfied, kicking the netball like soccer.

since it's been so long since i played soccer and i've been dying to, since exams finished!

and volleyball! that has just got to come under june hols eh! :)

now, my favourite peekture of the day. ^^

i really liked the lighting here. :D

and i have to go take a bath, i'm damn stinko, hah.

ps. you. will. take. forever.

pps. yes, the answer's yes, hun! :D

ppps. guitar or camera? ugh, decisions are fatally submissive.

pppps. first thing in the morning, ehy, first thing in the morning. ^^

Edited

did anyone tell you how much i love facebook? :D

it's so fantastically awesome!

but it's not in the way you guys love it.

it's absolutely great for _ _ _ _ _ _ . ^^

its privacy, is a transparency screen shield. >:3

aight, enough of rambling.

gutten nacht! (german for goodnight) :D

Birthday Blues.

2009-05-17T04:58:00.001-07:00

Right, i just had to post, didn't i. oh well, let's get it over and done with.

Caption: N is the trend.

mood: dejected, then pissed, then smiley, then heck-care.

status: doesn't care anymore, anyhow, anywho, anywhere, anywhy, anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ncmy!

hmm yeah, it's her birthday, shocking but true. :D

got my dad's and mum's birthday present alr.

and, i'm gonna change my number!

shall sms you people the new one, when it's in proper use eh. :)

pissed off at two people today though.

yes, two, insensitive people.

made the whole day go a little more sour than supposedly so.

i guess the whole thing all in all was tiring, and slacky.

the best part of the day was going out with the Brady bunch!

they made the day awesome! :D

seriously, you guys are totally golden. :b

and, i've decided i'm not gonna care about the ____ of people who wished me h____ b_______.

cause, if they don't care, i won't. :)

but for those people who did, i really appreciated it, thanks so mucho! :D

i (L) you guys, i betcha know who you are. "P

tagged/sms-ed/called/msn-ed, whatev, you made the day so much brighter for me!

ps. K, ty so much. :) and the anonymous sms too ahaha.

pps. what's the point in remembering, if you just screwed it all up in the end neway. thanks a bunch, and you don't need to say welcome. ._.

ppps. that's just no excuse.

pppps. thank you DCHY, RYJY, YL (sorry, don't know your surname), SKSH, FT (don't know either), GCYN, NABIL, and SLXP soooo much for your birthday posts! :)

ppppps. and, RSWC, JCJA, and PGXY who put it on their msn pm's!

ppppps. you know when they say 'good things don't last'? well, what if they hadn't even started?

e-learning.

2009-05-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

if there's anything that kills, it's e-learning. it kills.

mood: perky cause she's been remembered.

status: is laughing her head off like crazy at all those poor suckers that got sucked into using facebook.

I, NCMY, HAVE FINISHED MY E-LEARNING AHAHAHA! :)

well, still got part c. to go for SS, but that's all manzx! :D

hahaha, can slack like qwerty now eh.

but i just realised, now i'm gonna be bored.

sigh.

hahaha.

no tag replies, till they're more.

neway, there's nothing much to post about, except to gloat that yours truly, has practically finished her e-learning, as of 6pm! :D

and, checkidout. you might like this. click. ---> (yell-thenrun.bs)

hahaha. it's a story you guys should read, if you know, you watch Avatar before and stuff.

k, i think i'm gonna do some slacky leveling in darkeden, or find somebody pro to help level my nooby water ouster. :)

ps. you really remembered, you really did! :)

pps. i'm amazed.

ppps. booyahsucks to you people who haven't finished ya e-learning!

pppps. i want an electric guitar for my birthday! ):

whenever, wherever, whatever, oh yeah ~ . HAHAHA.

auf wiedershen! :)